cunts you are

really can't take it anymore.
guess i'll just go back to blogging. and off twitter, of course.
seriously, i don't normally get affected by people. but today i guess i'm just done with it. you can judge me on what i wear or what i listen to or whatever la, but seriously not on my past or issues with my life that you don't know about. who are you to pass judgement anyway? calling me mean for fuck? yeah, I am mean. with reasons. you think I get angry and let out a bitch for....fun? you think i hate someone for fun? for stupid reasons? of course not, I am only human and I love being happy. Just some times some people pull the wrong strings. or let's just say, someone.

so i'm immature and you're so fucking mature to lie and do whatever you did....? so it's childish to have feelings or feel angry towards someone who treated you like crap? I obviously got over it, got over you. but you can never expect me to be some angel who would treat you as a friend, like what you mentioned "we could be friends". fuck off. i am not some dog you can just love and then shut me off and treat me like some "friend". it's all or nothing. you've hurt me you know it, you apologised, i took the apology. but you seriously don't expect me to treat you like some good guy....? and say good things about you when all you've ever did was......give me crap. yeah you might have made me happy in certain parts of our r/s but you really think i didn't have to look past so many things that were crap about you? I did so because i think i shouldn't be some fussy bitch as a girlf and just accept one for whoever they are. and compromise. and make things hard for you and myself. yeah i'm bitchy but you seriously don't think you make a genuinely good guy, do you....? because honestly you're not anything magnificent or anything that would make me go "oh she is lucky to have him".

seriously, who's the immature one who can't accept me joking around? who tips off just by one simple tweet which doesn't even necessarily relates to you. but since you have that much guts to think they're indirected to you why not be mature enough to accept it or let it go? since you claim yourself to have grown. piece of bullshit you're still the same ego fuck you are and some cock who's cocky, with no reasons to be. and your sister who thinks she knows everything. hahaha yeah she is your sister she'll be by your side and support you but she doesn't know the dick that you are so who the fuck is she to pass such judgements and call me mean and everything really. come find some balls and go straight up to me then if you think i "don't deserve to say such things". pls just fuck off if you don't know anything that has happened. tell me how you'd live if you've been treated like crap. tell me you will never feel angry towards that fucker ever......... yah go ahead be an angel.

i am a fucking human and i can't control my temper so if you can't even take my rants then don't even bother reading them or following me.....? i didn't even ask you to or whatever so if you've chosen to follow me THEN JUST FUCK OFF AND BARE WITH IT you are invited to fuck off if you're not pleased with them. i don't live to please any of you fuckers anyway.

you are such a fucker really you are

after everything the least i thought is that you'd keep to the simplest words you said really. nvm all your promises theyre never going to be fulfilled but what the fuck you now really have the face to just contradict everything youve ever told me. every. single thing.

you know i dont care much about you now but what the fuck i thought youd have the decency to just at least keep to your bloody words and decision that i respected. you really are a liar. you really are a heartless person. you really are a douchebag. you just are. and ive never expected all these to come from someone like you. slowly everything just seems so clear and i cant believe i actually fell for everything i thought it was real i never thought you would ever turn out to be someone like this how the fuck did i just see all these now omg im still in a fucking shock and id be traumatized to ever trust anyone

i never thought i would want to but i hate you

omg why do i distant myself away from my guy friends and everything when you...........


dont even feel the sense of awkwardness of being close to girls.
i am fucking stupid.

goodnight

you bitch. of course i'm jealous.

well tht sounded horrible but yeah im fuckin serious.
its getting annoying, youre making me miserable.

....................
i mean just look at you now. i didn't know you'd turn out like....this.
yeah ive missed you but, whtever.

it doesn't matter now does it.




fuck this okay it's just two weeks to go.

oh my i just cant wait to see the real you after os

ah seriously i need this space right now.
sigh. you know, alot of shit happened lately. too much.
in fact, for the past 3 weeks maybe, we've always been fighting every few days.
if not fight, get all angsty cranky or you know, that tension?

yeh yknow it srsly sucks......but ok we solved that few days ago.
so the reason was.... you rly cant stand it that i have guys in my inbox ok sorry???? and you wouldnt even listen to my explanation :( no wait, you did. but i had a "yeah okay" as a reply. yeah sure...... sigh. and then since all matters are solved, i thought it's all okay. war's over.


ive stopped texting everyone. and everything. just so i dont have to go thru another war. and yup i know your expression and emotions change when you saw the name of the ex in my inbox. ah, you mean you thought i didn't see yours? sure. i just pretended like i didn't. i totally did. and she was on your twitter mentions too. oh wow now look who's talking to who's ex...............yup sure.

ok have a nice day while i adapt to a shitty life