feel like reviving the public blog.
hmmmm.
Thursday, June 2, 2011
and i can't stand how much you're hiding things from me sometimes.
i mean it's clear on your twitter and you're still going "it's nothing"?
"I'm fine! really :)"
oh come on i feel beyond lousy so what am i here for?
just to tell you i love you every night?
you won't even trust me to tell me what's wrong?
alright.
i mean it's clear on your twitter and you're still going "it's nothing"?
"I'm fine! really :)"
oh come on i feel beyond lousy so what am i here for?
just to tell you i love you every night?
you won't even trust me to tell me what's wrong?
alright.
so yeah.
it's been long.
have only ranted much thru twitter.
guess i miss blogging, rly.
twitter's so open everyone would just judge me.
and, tumblr just ain't the place to rant.
so guess here I am.
the last time i posted was in march. roar i see my angsty post. well, it's not like we made up anyway. i don't regret anything. i still think that he hasn't change but i've decided not to live full of hate so he isn't in my life anymore :-)
i now live peacefully. i love my boyfriend but well he might disappoint me sometimes. it's k i think life is meant to disappoint you at times -.-
heh two months actually past really fast. I thank god for the presence of someone like him. but of course, i'll forever love my bestfriends maryam and hamizan. to be honest, sec school has brought me to meet new amazing people but i can never feel the same as how i did in pri sch. i can never find the same kind of friends that i can trust fully and just let myself loose without anyone judging. i mean just look at how aisyah alyaa and maryam was. they were beyond amazing. but things just have to change, people just have to change too :/ there's shahf who i can count on now, but yeah it still ain't really the same. still, thanks Allah. :)
sometimes i really feel like i don't have friends. as in, i don't have real true friends you know. i don't even know who are my bestfriends now (except those two yup). And I'm starting to feel even more socially awkward these days......................
and when i face shit these days i just don't know who to turn to. sometimes my boyfriend may seem a little busy/less interested. and, yeah i really don't have anyone to turn to sometimes i just die inside. i really wish i had someone who'd always be there, even though it's almost impossible.
sigh. life these days.
it's been long.
have only ranted much thru twitter.
guess i miss blogging, rly.
twitter's so open everyone would just judge me.
and, tumblr just ain't the place to rant.
so guess here I am.
the last time i posted was in march. roar i see my angsty post. well, it's not like we made up anyway. i don't regret anything. i still think that he hasn't change but i've decided not to live full of hate so he isn't in my life anymore :-)
i now live peacefully. i love my boyfriend but well he might disappoint me sometimes. it's k i think life is meant to disappoint you at times -.-
heh two months actually past really fast. I thank god for the presence of someone like him. but of course, i'll forever love my bestfriends maryam and hamizan. to be honest, sec school has brought me to meet new amazing people but i can never feel the same as how i did in pri sch. i can never find the same kind of friends that i can trust fully and just let myself loose without anyone judging. i mean just look at how aisyah alyaa and maryam was. they were beyond amazing. but things just have to change, people just have to change too :/ there's shahf who i can count on now, but yeah it still ain't really the same. still, thanks Allah. :)
sometimes i really feel like i don't have friends. as in, i don't have real true friends you know. i don't even know who are my bestfriends now (except those two yup). And I'm starting to feel even more socially awkward these days......................
and when i face shit these days i just don't know who to turn to. sometimes my boyfriend may seem a little busy/less interested. and, yeah i really don't have anyone to turn to sometimes i just die inside. i really wish i had someone who'd always be there, even though it's almost impossible.
sigh. life these days.
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