Okay once again I've got no one to talk to about you.

So i'll keep on talking to, yeah you know. my blog. haha.

Sigh, these days......have been exhausting. I've been disappointed plenty of times, or maybe now it's been almost everyday. But I can't say much. Alright alright, I asked for it. I totally did. You're going through your crucial moments now okay Os are just round the corner which is why I've been quiet about it and you know, just keep everything to myself. All these things I'm feeling, fine I'll just swallow them. I understand you've been busy with Os, so well okay I can understand why you've been changing slowly. It's like as if your life was stolen and you can't be happy about anything. Or maybe I just can't make you happy? I don't know but yeah okay under your 'depression' due to the coming Os I'm fine ya know i'll keep this allllllllll to myself and throw it away somewhere.

But well there's about another 100 days before I really realise whether it was Os that made you like this, or if you are just the way you are. Your true colours would get really loud by then. And well yeah, I'm sorry if I decide to leave you then. Seems mean, don't you think so? Leaving someone because they disappoint you with their attitude. But well I'm sorry you're not someone I can talk to about how you've changed or how you've been behaving unusual-y you'll be all like "whut no" "no i'm ok" or you just won't tell me anything sigh sometimes it just makes me feel like shit.

What's the point of pretending to be all fine when you give me all these sorts of things.........